My condolences to you mate. It's tough losing a loved one, but it does get easier. You never stop missing them, but with time you'll remember the good times more than the pain of them not being around. i hope that time comes quickly for you.
As for the m&m's - we didn't get the peanut butter ones in Europe!

. In fact we only get the regular brown bag and the peanut yellow bag. I think we had limited releases in blue and red bags, but they aren't regular. Whenever I go to the US I try all the different ones - really like the almond ones. Are the peanut butter ones any different from Reese's pieces? (We don't have those either by the way)